I can feel the kiss

I recorded this video clip in Vanuatu 2010.
The true beginning…as every day is a beginning.
I just wasn’t aware of it then, that the trip to Vanuatu
was going to set-off a chain reaction of events,
that lead from this moment in Vanuatu,
to my ‘new life’ in Japan just a year later.

The amount of accumulated special moments since then
until this present moment, is huge!
So what I am doing, is to spread them out on my
enormous time line.
I have divided the time-line spanning from little before this
video in Vanuatu until today, and on it I add photos.
To each photo I add a note with event name,
for example “Live gig at Meguro Live Station with xxx band”.

Under the line I also add notes like departure times for
flights, visits from abroad, and everything else.
Just to keep track of all the places I’ve been…
is a task in itself
During the years I cover (about 6-7 years), besides my life in Japan,
I lived in or visited (not in order and many I visited several times):
USA: Arizona, California, Colorado, Nevada, New Mexico,  Texas,
Utah, and Washington
UK including London and Wales, Sweden, Germany, Laos, Ukraine,
Azerbaijan, India, Nepal, Thailand, Hong Kong, Taiwan
Vanuatu, Mexico, Canada, Singapore
…. and more
and in Japan, I traveled a total of 6 weeks with Japan Rail Pass.
From northern Tohoku to Kyushu and a lot of it in between.

The program I use for this purpose is called ‘Scapple’
and it’s really invaluable to my book writing project.

In the photo below I combined two screen shots.
In the upper half,
one can see one year (of approximately 7 years total)
In the lower half one can see
how it looks closer up.
I still need to add more notes about each event,
for example names of band members at a live,
or who was with me at a certain bar and so on.


It is however time-consuming!
Often I find my mind wandering off.
A photo generate an intense feeling of
actually being there.
I can smell the flowers.
I can hear the music.
I can feel the kiss on my lips.
I can hear arguments and conflicts.
I can sense the love
It’s all embedded in this time line.
And the questions arise.
Why?  Why did we meet?
Why did I choose this or that?
It is also time consuming by the whole
metod in itself,
but in the end, I’m sure this is the best way!

Memories, but also a future.
My future.
Our future.
I have no doubt that even if I’m writing my book
about the past, it is not finished.
My story is not finished.
Friendship, and relationships,
continue in to the future.
My book is a snippet of this
It really has no true beginning,
nor is it by any means
over yet!



PAINFUL departure

Leaving Tokyo was emotionally painful..but I was looking forward to some sunshine and warmer weather in the US. LAX had gorgeous spring weather and here today it was a nice +15C/+59F and I felt hope for spring and thawing my core… until I had this sudden realization tonight, that NO, this is New Mexico and yes, temperatures can drop, and weather can change especially over night….
I’m becoming so intolerant for this yucky frozen wetness and I really dont like it, especially not without proper winter clohtes. NOT Much sense in buying any either since Im leaving in less than 2 weeks going to Australia and in April when I come back to Japan it will not be horrors like winter temperatures anymore…
I really think that part of my agony has to do with the fact that I don’t have clothes for this.
I do soooooo NOT like this!
Sorry for the whine, but now I regret ever complaining about the cold temps in Tokyo!!



I feel so filled with life after seeing him and MADさん on stage!
Brain must surely have produced tons of good stuff tonight,
because I’m convinced I must be in a musical paradise of fun times.

To do what I do, and I do a lot of it lately, makes me sometimes drag
my feet out the door… It’s not that I think it will be yet another loud night,
or yet another band to hear..
Tonight I knew it was going to be great to hear KISS the WORLD.
but I sure didn’t know a thing about the other bands… so… yeah…

I must admit I wasn’t really keen on leaving my house today at all.
What pushed me over was the fact that I didn’t want to miss KTW,
and second I had no good excuse to give to Phoe-Lo, friendship
commitments are important!
And lastly the Venue “Zher the Zoo” is within walking distance from my
I went!
Not really thinking a lot or expecting much.

Also biggest surprise, that Ru-chan must have sensed, because
she said to me:
Anna, you never know…
and guess what, I ‘found’ another band that was a real WOW tonight.
I want to check them out as soon as I can….
It was like seeing Kiyoharu performing with BUCK-TICK with a
Hizaki guitarist and a bassist as eye candy.

Their sound was awesome! I really liked it, and they had a slow ballad in
the end.. that was world class!

PINK SPIDER you work in mysterious ways
You can find DIE-san on twitter as @Pukapyu


One Minute Before Midnight

We were thinking of leaving this place before midnight,
when suddenly I looked at the time and well…. it was one minute before midnight, so we stayed and chilled and said that OK time is almost ripe to go…. sometimes you just cannot let a thing like a
New Year’s Eve  be such a big deal… just enjoy the moment!
so we did!! and wow so many people were actually around us
and we cheered and had fun! We just hadn’t noticed them.