Sugizo – Tree of Life

SuGiZo – Tree of Life

I bought it on a day when the moon was FULL….
and this was one of the few things that worked out great today…
a lot of stuff did NOT go my way..
so this will be about my life and my day, my tree of life and not much about Sugizo LOL

Then again when I got home, around midnight, I summed it all up …

…and you know it’s really funky how we tend to emotionally really can mess up our
experiences, whether it be over a day, a week or a life time…
I was upset because for a ton of silly mishaps and ‘emergencies’.
I ended up being so delayed that I (and well Phoe-Lo too) had to skip a LIVE tonight

The other ‘bad’ thing that happened was that I bought a Japanese iTunes card and my American account still blocks it out.
So these two things made me think gaaah what a day…
but then when I looked at the whole picture….I saw something different, or maybe
I saw it differently
a hide-miracle happened, and I got a last minute appointment for doing the
that I felt was so important to me already before leaving for Japan,
and was one of the must do things here in Japan!
I was just sitting at dinner time and talking with Phoe-Lo and I said to her:
“Well the tattoo I guess just wasn’t meant to happen, because the only time I have now
would be Thursday after 6 pm, and the only place I know about said they didn’t have any
times until next week….”
Why does hide always have to do miracles in very the last minute ?? ha ha ha
After midnight I got an email in my inbox… one of the tattoo guys said he could
come in on Thursday and do it for me.. would 7PM/19:00 o’clock be a good time…
WOW… Yes yes yes!
by the way this is the text that will be embodied …or embedded or.. inked…
or ha ha ha ha  it will be tattooed…

ピンクスパイダー 空は呼んでいる

the very same words I heard at Miura Reien in May…when I decided that YES I should
jump, leap, fly… and catch a pink cloud …and be in Japan….for a reason that wasn’t
totally clear to me.….

Also I was upset at Tower Records in Ikebukuro for not having the Ra:IN album I wanted
to buy…but I should choose to be happy that they could put one on hold in the
Shibuya store for it…
See there is always a choice on how to react.…but we all tend forget that..

Same when the Izakaya here downstairs had no table … first I was upset..
or well not toooo bad, but I was a little annoyed, but then, because of it, we
decided to go to the little Spanish place across the street.. and
WOW I got a glass of the best Rioja Crianza wine with just the perfect temperature…
so what am I really whining about and WHY?

To relearn takes time because we need to unlearn old ways of thinking first,
old ways of reacting to our reality….

The best thing today though, was also the reason that I was delayed
( and still I felt negatively about it… weird),
was that I printed out the art work I have been working on.
It came out way better than I could possibly have hoped for, so once again I had proved
to myself that rethinking and abolishing evaluation, as well as not dividing life in terms of
good and bad is the WAY TO GO!!

I am sad, yes I am sad, to leave Japan, but on the other hand I am also
sooooo happy to be able to see some of my beloved people in the US.
Friends that I miss and love..
and now tonight, when I sat online I received a few messages that means the world to me… and I felt how my inner core started to fire up and sparkle by the thought alone
of seeing this friend again!
oh you LIFE … I OWE you MY everything…
oh yes, my life has a life of its own and it is quite
fascinating to UNFOLD it….

oh and regarding my tattoo, I got it at Tokyo Hardcore Tattoo
Highly recommend them!







Thank you soo much for messages (like the one quoted below)
here on tumblr, to my email and on Facebook!
I’m seriously touched, and it makes me feel even more convinced that
I AM doing the right thing, and hide indeed knows what he is doing when
he is inspiring me to make a WEB through music.
A web of friendship and LOVE that reaches across borders and cultures;
A PINK SPIDER WEB that works through MUSIC and within people…
and touches our HEARTS!!
” I just love your posts! I guess I am kind of living vicariously here XD
Took a lot of guts to do what you did, I admire you quite a lot.
It’s also a joy to run into another passionate adult music fan.

Tell Me

hide’s BIRTHDAY 

Video from Miura reien on his Birthday Dec 13th 2011

The videos from Miura are in honor of his BIRTHDAY
and also for ALL of those who couldn’t be up here today,
Japan or in Metropolitan Tokyo area.
Where ever you are and who ever you are…
hide is singing a song for you!

I’m telling you….

….. like pink clouds in the sky…. 

Tell me….

Even if I expose myself to the brilliant wind
It won’t go away, I look at myself
I come over to you, without showing my attitude
My outline is revealed

My body dances in illusion
A pantomime opposite of my heart
I bury the wounds which begin to open
In order to be myself

Tell me, somebody tell me, please tell me.
Even if it’s in inaudible words
Tell me, somebody tell me, please tell me.

Your voice has not reached me yet
Even if I search for a distorted love
I covet only what does not have an answer or meaning
My voice goes along
Until I’m ashes, I won’t be able to hear it

Tell me, somebody tell me, please tell me.
Who is the one who shuts my eyes?
Tell me, somebody tell me, please tell me.
Do I see you through my eyes?

Tell me, somebody tell me, please tell me.
Can I see myself in you?
Tell me, somebody tell me, please tell me.
I can’t see myself in me

Tell me, somebody tell me, please tell me.
Even if it’s in inaudible words
Tell me, somebody tell me, please tell me.

Your voice has not reached me yet

Singin’ my song for me.
Singin’ your song for you.
Singin’ my song for me.
Singin’ your song for you.





Blue is the color

The color of her hair made me think of
now Blue Blood I hear

hide BIRTHDAY 2011

at Miura Reien




Stay Free

Celebrating your birthday here at Miura Reien…..

no…don’t be sad …
I’m just here with your BIRTHDAY CARD dear….

If you say you’re sad, then so is the blue of the sky
You’d cry over the restlessness of not being able to reach
the dreams that embrace your small body, swallow the pain,
and become brilliant

Stay free my misery If you reach your hands You will feel Catching the falling pain with both arms
Stay free my misery Love, hate, accepting everything as they are
Stay free my misery