FREE

FREE –
So as some of you know, I came across some hurdles, disappointments yesterday
and even if I didn’t show it on the outside until hours later I was hit to the ground
and YES I cried!
Why?
Because the plan I had set forth wasn’t going to work out as I wanted it to.
I was mad, I was sad, I was disappointed and doubting hide’s call..
Was this PINK SPIDER JUMP going to be a sudden death just like for the Spider
Would this be the end of everything I have worked for?
Is my blog really just entertainment for me to escape the world
and not accept reality?
Are all those people who tell me, I avoid duty and responsibility, and because
of it this will never end well…
are they right? and I wrong?
Is social networks, and believing in music and in hide,
just like a bubble of speculations much like the dot com and the real estate bubbles
A bubble that just burst at the lawyer’s office?

Then when I woke up this morning the first thing I felt was a sense of
TOTAL and ABSOLUTE FREEDOM

I am FREE… well I desire one thing , to stay here consecutively
and that is the ONE thing I cannot do… in that moment right after I
have come to the realization of total freedom,
I again heard hide’s voice singing to me:
If you say you’re sad, then so is the blue of the sky
You’d cry over the restlessness of not being able to reach
The dreams that embrace your small body, swallow the pain,
and become brilliant

but of course…. !!!! I cry because I’m attached to my DREAM…
BUT it doesn’t mean I cannot still go for it… I am still FREE

and hide continues to sing….

Kiss your misery I’ll dance till I wilt Accepting everything as they are
Stay free my misery, Stay free my misery


and meanwhile I will continue to take one moment at the time
and think this over…
I can actually use the time away from Japan to build up the foundation,
the WEB site and PINK SPIDER WEB outside of Japan as well!
Right now I’m not sure where I will go … all ideas are welcome!

I will spin Pink Silk threads around the globe…
Here is hide’s lyrics to misery that I heard in my head this morning….

Hallelujah Les miserables Do you wanna show me how low & low?
Hallelujah Les miserables Do you wanna show me how low & low?
SAY HALLELUJAH!

Your pain happily unfolds it’s wings and comes dancing down
Daylight embraces your scars and gently opens them up

Hallelujah Les miserables If you listen to the stars’ mourns
Hallelujah Les miserables It’s only a small matter
Say hallelujah
If you sink into the darkness of the night It’s something you’ll forget
Swaying emotions, a short-lived dream, a small tragedy
If you count the falling stars, you’ll be tired of crying
The blue of the smiling moon Rubs on you scars and closes them up

Stay free my misery Catching the falling sadness in those arms
Kiss your misery I’ll dance till I wilt Accepting everything as they are
Stay free my misery, Stay free my misery
Stay free my misery

Stay free my misery If this exploding pain is only a passing wind
Stay free my misery Let’s wait for a rainy partly sunny. I’ll eat away your tears, see?

If you say you’re sad, then so is the blue of the sky
You’d cry over the restlessness of not being able to reach
The dreams that embrace your small body, swallow the pain,
and become brilliant

Stay free my misery If you reach your hands You will feel Catching the falling pain with both arms
Stay free my misery Love, hate, accepting everything as they are
Stay free my misery

Stay free my misery Catching the falling sadness in those arms
Stay free my misery I’ll dance till I wilt
Accepting everything, under this sky, you are smiling

Hallelujah Les miserables I wanna show me how low & low?
Hallelujah Les miserables Do you wanna show me how low & low?
Hallelujah Les miserables I wanna show me how low & low?
Hallelujah Les miserables Do you wanna show me how low & low?
Say hallelujah!

Club Citta says: Happy Birthday hide!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY hide!

 

 

 

 

Arrived at Club Citta, Kawasaki

hide’s Birthday Party December 13th, 2011

Arrived at Keio Kawasaki station, after some minor gaijin mistakes
with train schedules and lack of maps (lack of phone w internet).
I really thought I had prepped it all the night before,  but I started doubting myself which is an absolute no-no while en route.
Anyway let’s not dwell on my shortcomings, but instead move
in closer to Club Citta  and hide’s birthday party 2011!

Just look at this artist line up:
木村世治&YANA
CUTT electrick
defspiral
DJ-INA
MADBEAVERS
MAKIN’ LOVE
Ra:IN
heidi
and others…

Here is a link to Club Citta so you can see upcoming events
and get a feel for what this place is about!
http://clubcitta.co.jp/ 

 

 

 

 

The Miura Shore

Miura Kaigan….the Miura Shore

 

 

I know that it is different to actually be in a place compared to
looking at a photo.
You cannot hear the seagulls, the land birds chirping,
the waves hitting the shore, the wind..
You cannot smell the ocean; the salt, the roots hanging to dry,
the fishing nets, the hemp ropes…
but maybe the photos can convey that everything around this
bus stop (Miura reien) looks the same, or appears to look the same,
not including the changes of seasons.
Everything here breathes and tells you that:
everything here remains the same
Miura Kaigan is always Miura Kaigan

hide will always be a little over 33 years old.
his brother hiroshi has aged,
DIE, Pata, INA, Toshi, Chirolyn… they all have …even Heath,
even though it is harder to detect ha ha,
and yes so has Yoshiki….
we who go on…. we age….
hide doesn’t!
His playful recordings up on that roof top with Jennifer Finch,
will always be our hide.

The ocean remains the same….
yet at the same time…
The waves are proof that the ocean is also always active,
and ever-changing,

for us who go on aging… the ocean remains the same….
for us still here amongst the living, hide IS the same..
the same inspiration
the same voice
the same songs
the same call for love and Stay Free My MISERY

He is still with us, every day
like the ocean….